And... It began

Sometimes you're wondering how a story, your story will end. Sometimes you will ask yourself whether everything you plan would work as you expect or just fall instead.

Yet, here one of my stories, or to be more specific, my love story has revealed its ending. I meant the ending of all the curiosities, all of the wishful thinking, all of the hopes, in between angst and everything, Allah showed us what has been covered behind, the man who would take my hand and walk along the way together with him for the rest of our life has come. The one who once came and never left the road we once agreed to take. The one who showed me how a good heart and perseverance would work just perfectly well once you just give the rest to ALLAH after working hard on it. He's the one who impressed me and continue doing it day by day. For everything you have done and keep doing it, thank you, Abang. I thank Allah for giving me this chance to be someone's wife in this life.  I'm so glad I can't really describe that someone is you.  Every time I think about this, I'm so blessed and excited to start a new life with you, a kind hearted-guy I once fell for a long time ago but never thought that we could be together again after all those things that happened. long and another story about this to come for sure. XD

7 days. Right. Our togetherness is as short as it sounds, I know. It's just as heavy as both our hearts to bid a farewell for now. Insya Allah in around twelve days or shorter we will be reunited in a place where we could celebrate again and counting more our thankfulness to Allah who grants me this great great happiness by his side. We are going to walk down the memory lane soon and experience the blast to come, insya Allah.

Clearly 7 days was nothing for some people. but for us, it was a great chapter of introduction into a big, thick story book of two of us shaping the life of each other, together, till we grow old, together, aaamin Ya Rabbana.

Alhamdulillah, since the Akad on May 7th at 8 pm, we are officially a husband and wife. 😊 


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(Polonia Airport, Medan on a busy Monday waiting for my next flight back to Banda Aceh)


An odd lyrics translation

"You said you're not crying
but your voice was trembling
so I just held you there,

There's not even a hint that
we'll be able to promise a future 
for one another
so why me
I'm sure 
there's no answer to that

And you said you're not crying
but your voice was trembling
..."

I know, I know. That's kind of weird feeling now when you read about it and think,"Wait! What was happening here?"

How could she ended up with such lines on her notes. seems like those were from some random sad dramatic lyrics or some translation from an anime ost? an anime she once watched? Probably. 

And someone was just so in the mood of walking down memory lane to degree to consider including this leftover of some old note over here. Probably it is good to keep things that once had a meaning for the younger you, I guess. It's like looking into a mirror and see how much you grown up and how things (although it is just a little thing that probably you won't even remember if it was not kept in a page like that) just shaped you into a person you become now. I found it intriguing. 

Email from Yesterday


It was there since yesterday I noticed. I however was surprised for its subject, "Birthday message" since it's not his birthday for sure and it's not coming in any time soon. In fact we share the same month. Thus, I was wondering and decided to just read it right away although that was not my plan when I checked my inbox. I just wanted to check if there's any email from school or my sponsorship. well, you don't know what you will get everyday in your inbox, right? 

I landed on the sentences whereas he wrote about why he used that subject reply (which was a reply to my email to him years ago), to write me and how he nicely inferred whether it's me who once wrote him that email or its someone else. 
Well, that just made me spontaneously whispered to myself, "yeah, probably people changed, no, the feeling did...". 
A friend of mine told me that and this time I'm pretty sure she's gonna be excited if I tell her that I get it. Hey, I second you. Yeah, time changes the way you look at things too, sometimes.

I finished reading those three paragraphs and left out with the nostalgic and uncertain thought about things that happened years ago. I couldn't help to think it thoroughly and was impressed on how differently I feel when I read it and about to reply his email, compared to the feeling when I recalled the excitement I had when I once wrote him back then. It's been a while and I clearly could see how distant we are now and how I personally have been doing that unconsciously. 

Well, honestly I don't know. when we met again last time I could asses how my current feeling about us and how we just can't go any further. It's just my personal thought that I never got a chance to discuss with him. I kept it and think it's better that way and the trip we took last time would make him understand on how platonic our relationship is after I learned what was really going on and how reactive I was and how I want to put things in order afterward. I even rewarded myself on how clear my mind was after those days and how relieved I am to see the way I deal with it like a grown girl. 

I thought we are already done and move on from that phase until that email came. It's like it signaled that him questioning my different act towards him now. I meant we still keep in touch but just for few important updates and not as actively as we did before. Sorry. 

I did reply it right away. I don't want to be a bad guy here. that's the last thing I want to do in this world given the fact that I was so broken inside. I guess some people did learn the hard way, huh.

Yet, I realized how I hated it that it made me checking my inbox again tonight just in case he replies it. As far as I know, he's kind of guy who would get back to you as soon as he can and would let you know when he can't, moreover when he is the one who write first. So, for whatever comes, we will see, at least I'm trying not to complicate things. I look forward to how it resolves. Finger crossed, as always. 



Silent Talk


It's not the first time since we were apart, when there was a conversation played again and again in my mind. Again, this time can't help not to think about it and all we've been through...
it's always there, I assure you
and the prayer we keep saying
let it reach sky for gazillions times, let it be...
Allah would always love to hear when we ask Him, wouldn't He?

Alrigt! Here goes again,some line quoted from my favorite song for this mind-hectic week. It's not a heinous thing to keep doing this to your mind, I believe. because in between the angst and fear, we do have many delightful moments. Allah is close to your heart, He listens every hope from every soul...


It's been a long day without you, my friend
And I'll tell you all about it when I see you again
We've come a long way from where we began
Oh, I'll tell you all about it when I see you again
When I see you again...

(Charlie Puth ft Wiz Khalifa- See You Again)







Do we have to know the answer?

It rings the bell right away! I forgot that I ever read it somewhere about this, do we need to know the answer for every question we have in mind when life sometimes gives us a challenge to face, when a problem comes, when unpleasant thing happens. 
I mean for me, there were few times I tried to arrange some puzzles to put in a good composition for the meaning I was looking for. and this one just like, 'aha!'. 

It happened within two weeks when I was feeling ill accompanied by fever, cough and headache, I could not do much for works or any regular activities. it was really bad flu time for me as far as I could remember since I've grown up. yet, in the last weekend, I could spent some relaxing time watching a light stuff but not that light as it turns out it's fun yet has some reasonable heart-warming and values to our humans world. well, it is subjective and varied from one to another, also depends on how you like enjoying some pop-culture stuff like this. haha.

I am talking about a nice quote from one of the scenes in Emergency Couple, Korean drama. the quote is originally from a book that Song Ji Hyo (she plays as Jin Hee) borrowed from Gook Chief, the head of department in the hospital she is working. Make it short, and after I googled it further, the book is The Eight Words by a Korean author, Park Woong Hyun. 

"The world has no answer. Marrying someone, knowing whether you'll be happy or not, that's something no one would know. Don't look for the answers.  With every decision, the right and wrong answer exists. Wise people make a decision and work towards making it the right choice. Foolish people make a decision and regret it and making it the wrong choice. The world has no right answer. But, there's a process to making the decision the right answer" (The Eight Words by Park W. Hyun)

Well said and it strikes right to the heart, honestly. Too true to handle. That's life and mysteries it offers. You work your best on every step and decision you make in life. Let alone the judgements do their favor to stand between your doubts. Just ask Allah and your heart when you decide, then you just do it. 

   Jin Hee was reading the quote in the      book outloud to Gook Chief.

Books that They Read

Well, I am telling you this again what my good friend has quoted it once, If you want to get to know someone, read what s/he reads and writes. That's very true.


admittedly, I'm always drawn over people who likes reading and writing. Either when they write about stuff that's new to me or things I could relate to. it always happens. It does.

there's someone whose mind and character I am fancy of. we were in the middle of conversation about him telling me he likes to read old books and sometimes he writes too. and now he stopped, I meant, writing. because for reading I still saw him few times when he goes to our University's library and come back with some serious books. He's really something, I know. 

"... and why you stopped?" asked I 
" I don't have time..."

I chuckled as it does sound too familiar to me and I don't even bother to ask why. I myself know that phrase too well. *oh God, my blog*

"I'm too busy with graduate school, research and my side projects..."

"that's understandable. you also teach, right?"

"I do..."

"What did you write about?"

"politics" he answered that firmly and I was like, "whoa, that's... heavy..."

" haha..." he's just laughing hearing my response. 

"I read some of your notes in Facebook tho"

"oh? you did?" he's in kind of blushing tone

"yep..."
and we talked more about our reading stuff. I don't even need to explain how happy I am to confirm that we share the same hobby. By the time I get to know him, he's now officially in the list!  
List of my favorite people. 

Thank God for such privilege meeting an adamantly thoughtful person like him in my journey. Life keeps many secrets to reveal time by time you walk through the path. 

 

 

Hadits for ROTD

Rasulullah bersabda,"Kerjakanlah apa yang bermanfaat buatmu dan mintalah pertolongan kepada Allah. Jangan mudah menyerah dan jangan pernah berkata, kalau saja aku melakukan yang begini pasti akan jadi begini, tapi katakanlah, Allah telah menakdirkan dan apa yang Dia kehendaki, pasti akan Dia lakukan"

Ya Rabb, I feel content now. I'm glad that I found this Reminder of The Day. Alhamdulillah. 

Memperbaiki Kesyukuran


Oh Allah, 
make me feel You and only You is enough
because eventually, nothing will matter, everything else will be gone
All I have will be taken away
So Allah...Please
Make me content with only you in my heart

(credit : Mysara, picture taken from Pinterest)

Life in Graduate School

Another chapter on my life as graduate student in Physics.
I know now that I have my favorite tutor. yay! Alhamdulillah.
I actually tried to ask his help and he just agreed on it right away. That boy, can I borrow your brain?
huhu.
"At what time it's convenient for you?"
"umm,  10 am?
"okay, that works!"
"cool!"
"how about the place? are you at Rundel reading room by tomorrow?"
"I'll go to your office?"
"oh really?" *terharu*
"yea... haha"
"okay, thank you! really appreciate that!"
"no problem!"
"see you tomorrow"
"see you...!"



and that's how he started helping me with study before the exam. It's pretty clear and much easier to follow his explanation through the chapter. once again, Can I borrow your genius brain?! :o

This class makes me crazy and wanna run to the wall and hit my head repetitively! bahahha.
Anyway, thanks Cameron! Its very kind of you!

Nyan keuh, jak lom u Amerika. Jak gob jak tanyoe, trok keunoe, rhoe ie mata. T.T



Melihatmu di merata tempat

Ada saat-saat ketika hati ingin sekali pulang. menyusup ke bawah pelukanmu.
menyelinap dari belakangmu, lalu memelukmu yang tertidur, lalu membaringkan diri di sebelahmu, ataupun sambil merangkulmu. diam-diam saja aku melakukannya.
maka jenak ini bernama rindu.


Kau akan mungkin sedang memasak, atau memanaskan sup ketika aku tiba di rumah hampir tengah malam.
"makan apa di jalan?" begitu tanyamu, dalam rekam jejak memoriku.
atau
"bagaimana di rumah sana?"

Lalu aku akan bercerita panjang lebar hari-hariku di rumah kos di Banda Aceh, bersama Dek Alfir dan Dek Amar. Lalu aku ganti bertanya dan kau akan bercerita tentang hari-harimu di sekolah dan di rumah dengan Ayah dan Dek Ata. Karena hanya kalian bertiga di rumah. Maka ceritamu  akan berkisar tentang Ata dan hal-hal lucu yang dilakukannya di rumah. Tentang ayah yang selalu sabar mengantar dan menjemputmu saban hari. ya, tentangnya, laki-laki yang kau banggakan setelah ayahmu. Ataupun juga tentang sayur bayam yang menurutmu terasa aneh sekarang. Tentang bumbu pisang goreng langganan kita puluhan tahun yang tidak berubah rasanya. Tentang uwak dekat rumah atau ibu guru tertentu temanmu di sekolah. Atau pula tentang piring berwarna putih yang lebih kau sukai lalu aku akan menimpali kalau aku menyukai versi warna hitamnya karena aku lebih dulu melihat gelasnya. Lalu kita berusaha memuji warna kesukaan kita masing-masing, 'iyaa, dua-duanya bagus juga..."
Hal remeh temeh dan segala tentangmu yang membuatku tersenyum sendiri atau mengerjapkan mata yang tiba-tiba berair tiap kali mengingat sosokmu. Sedu tertahan, aku tahu untuk beberapa saat lamanya aku tak bisa menghamburkan diri ke arahmu, ke dalam dua tanganmu. Lalu engkau akan mengusap kepalaku. Hening di sela dudukku bernama rindu.

Kadang di lain waktu aku akan duduk di meja makan, menungguimu. mungkin engkau sedang memanaskan sup dan ikan buat makan malamku yang sudah dini hari. Walaupun aku tak makan banyak, dan bilang tak apa, kau tetap melakukannya jika kau tahu aku pulang. Lalu kau akan menemaniku makan, meletakkan emping goreng kesukaanku di atas meja sambil menanyaiku banyak hal, menatap wajahku dalam-dalam. Aku seperti bisa melihat kedalaman hatimu di bening teduh matamu. Ada binar di sana, menghangatkan tiap sudut hati yang dingin. Aku selalu bersyukur tiap kali pulang melihat wajahmu.

Kau juga akan menanyakanku ingin dimasakkan apa. Atau kau akan membawakanku kue jajanan atau mie goreng yang dijual di sekolahmu. Aku seperti merasa masih berlari-lari dalam seragam merah putih dan engkau setiap pagi menyisir rambutku. kadang aku seperti masih bisa mendengar omelan pagi khasmu karena kami tidak bergegas atau tidak menghabiskan sarapan atau bertengkar rutin yang tidak jelas juntrungannya dan membuatmu kesal.

Aku masih ingat ketika dengan hati-hati bertanya padamu apakah aku membuatmu sedih dan kesepian karena jarang sekali pulang dan tinggal berjauhan darimu, atau bahkan ketika memutuskan melangkahkan kaki memenuhi janji dan cita-citaku. Aku memutar-mutar cangkir kopiku dengan senyum berusaha mencandaimu bahwa engkau pasti punya ayah yang begitu perhatian dan tidak mungkin akan kesepian. aku setengah bercanda sebenarnya. :)

Kau berbalik dari counter meja dapur sedang mengaduk kuah yang sedang dimasak, tersenyum sebentar menatapku.
"Mungkin karena mamak ingatnya kamu di Banda aja, gak jauh. jadi masih bisa lah, gak apa-apa. Jadi gak terlalu berasa"
Sambil mengangguk-angguk lega, paling tidak aku tidak membuatmu sedih dengan jarang menghabiskan waktu di rumah. Sejujurnya ada rasa bersalah dan tercubit ketika tiap kali engkau menelfon namun pertanyaanmu selalu tidak pernah lupa,'kapan pulang?'.

Aku menikmati semua saat bersamamu Mak. diomeli, dimarahi, diceritakan banyak hal, mengantarmu belanja, membuatkan teh, membukakan jendela kamarmu di pagi hari dan menutupnya sebelum magrib. Menemanimu di dapur, berceloteh banyak hal, tertawa dan kadang merengek tidak penting namun menyenangkan hatiku. menonton TV bersamamu walau lebih sering aku kemudian berbaring dan dipijat minyak kayu putih jika aku sedang kurang sehat. Atau sebaliknya, memijat kepalamu dan bercerita kesana kemari tentang hari-harimu dan banyak hal yang kau lakukan yang banyak sekali terlewatkan olehku.

Tahukah mak, engkau masih seseorang yang paling bisa membuatku tertawa tiba-tiba ketika sendirian lalu terduduk diam di sisi tempat tidur dan nelangsa mengingat semua hal tentangmu. Yang membuatku mennagis diam-diam saat menyuapkan makanan ke mulutku karena mengingat masakanmu yang selalu menjadi primadona dan senyum bahagiamu ketika menunggu kami mencicipinya lalu serempak memuji rasanya.
 "Enak kalii alhamdulillaaah"
"aaah... surga duniaa..."
"Kekmana dulu gak pernah mendekati rasanya kalau kami yang buat?"
dan segudang komentar yang membuatmu tertawa-tawa dan menyuruh kami melanjutkan makan. Kau mungkin berusaha menyembunyikan emosimu saat itu, anak-anakmu pulang, duduk mengitari meja makan dan makan masakanmu, menikmatinya seolah kami anak-anakmu yang kemarin pagi masih diantar ke taman kanak-kanak, yang hampir setiap saat selalu merepotkanmu.

Engkau pula, yang suara, wajah di layar saat sekarang kita terpisah jauh selalu menjadi obat penentram gelisahku. Skype berjam-jam yang mampu kita lakukan untuk membunuh rindu, mendengarkan ceritamu tentang hari itu, tentang kelucuan seminggu lalu, tentang saudara yang meninggal, tentang sepupu yang menikah atau melahirkan, tentang kau dan ayah yang pergi ke pasar atau sekedar jalan-jalan.
Rindu itu menguap sesaat namun segera tertabung lagi setiap kali kita usai menutup layar. Selalu begitu.

Mak, selalu ada wajah dan senyummu di merata tempat tiap kali aku mengayunkan langkah di sini. kadang di rumah, di dapurku, di sudut kamarku, atau di belakangku menungguku selesai tilawah, aku merasa engkau ada di merata sudut. Aku tahu, aku rindu padamu sebanyak itu.


 and today, when I look up to the sky, it took me miles away from here... 



Friday's Quote


and still, after all this time
 the Sun has never said to the earth, 
"you owe me"

Look what happens 
with a love like that
It lights the whole sky
-Hafez
(a Persian Poet of 1300)

Kebaikan di sore Rabu

Aku memutuskan ke swalayan terdekat, Dollar General, masih di dekat  apartemen. cuaca di penghujung musim dingin tidak lagi terlalu menusuk tulang. berjalan pelan menuju swalayan, dengan matahari sore yang tertutup langit mendung sejak pagi. sisa hujan deras semalam masih terlihat.

Jalanan tidak terlalu sepi tidak pula ramai. mungkin karena libur dan orang-orang sedang menghabiskan masa liburan ke luar kota. 

Jalan setapak yang biasa kulalui tampak sedikit merepotkan. Beberapa bagian nampak becek bekas tapak-tapak sepatu. aku berjalan lambat berusaha menghindari bagian ber lumpur. aku juga tidak membuat daftar apapun karena sebenarnya aku hanya ingin berjalan menghirup udara luar dan atau sebotol susu  mungkin? persediaan susu kami hampir habis.

aku masih beberapa blok jauhnya dari swalayan, ketika kulihat seorang polisi berseragam gelap memasuki swalayan. aha. polisi juga perlu berbelanja. XD

Ketika membuka pintu swalayan, kasir itu menyambut dengan ramah. aku balas tersenyum, meraih keranjang di tumpukan sebelah kanan pintu. seorang lelaki tua yang cukup tinggi dan kurus menatapku. aku hanya tersenyum sambil mengangguk. sepertinya ia sedang berbicara dengan kasir itu. Samar aku menangkap apa isinya, karena tidak begitu jelas apa yang diucapkannya. Terlebih juga karena aku tidak begitu paham aksennya. Aku hanya bisa menangkap saat si kasir menjelaskan tentang shuttle bus yang melewati kompleks perumahan tertentu. sepertinya ia berusaha menjelaskan kepada lelaki tua itu. Tunggu, sepertinya ia juga kasir baru, aku baru melihatnya hari ini. 

Begitu berada di dalam aku mulai mengambil beberapa barang yang tiba-tiba terlihat seperti kubutuhkan. Dan susu? tiba-tiba aku berubah pikiran dan menggantinya dengan sebotol jus. aku masih berputar-putar sambil berfikir menu makan malam. Sepertinya aku ingin sesuatu yang berbeda dari kemarin dan kemarinya lagi. Aku menuju rak chips kentang. memilih-milih ketika aku sadar lelaki tua tadi tampak mulai gusar dan suaranya mulai meninggi. Rak chips kentang tempat kuberdiri sekarang hanya berjarak sekitar 4 meter dari counter depan kasir. Polisi tadi selesai dan sekarang berjalan menuju kasir. 

"Hello! everything alright here?" sapanya sambil melempar pandang pada lelaki tua yang sejak tadi tidak berhenti bicara. oke, sekarang aku mulai memperhatikan mereka, tidak lagi fokus pada chips kentang di rak hadapanku. 
sang kasir mulai menghitung. Lelaki tua tadi mulai bicara lagi.
 "I missed the shuttle bus but it already stop running, you know. Its latest hour passed.... I can't ...."

Aku kehilangan ujung kalimatnya. aku tidak bisa menangkap keseluruhan dari apa yang di katakannya. Aksennya yang tidak dapat kumengerti. 
sang kasir berusaha menambahkan penjelasannya. dia berbicara dengan setengah ber bisik.
"okay, I'll take you there!" the police surprisingly responded in a very quick time. 

"oh, that's very sweet of you!" the cashier thanked him nicely.

"no problem" he said.

then he left with the old man. 
"don't forget your drink, sir!" said the cashier to the old man as he almost left his coke nearby the window pane.

I just saw it before my eyes, the things just solved nicely. you will meet kind people everywhere if you are really content with your surrounding. 

I now moved to another shelve after grabbing a bag of potato chips. Semua tadi terjadi begitu saja dan begitu cepat, dalam hitungan kurang dari sepuluh menit. Lamat-lamat aku masih mendengar sang kasir menjelaskan tentang baiknya sang polisi yang mau memgantarkan Bapak tua tadi. aku makin menjauh dari meja kasir, melanjutkan mencari makanan yang kupikir untuk makan malamku. 

Hari Rabu Kali ini tidak bisa tanpa kata. :)
aku bersyukur Ya Allah, melihat kebaikan hati manusia satu pada orang asing lainnya. terjadi begitu saja. 

aku berjalan pulang dengan lebih cepat, takut hujan Turun dan cuaca bertambah dingin. Aku juga tidak memakai jaket hanya selembar sweater yang tidak cukup tebal. aku sedikit menyepelekan cuaca yang kukira tidak akan begitu dingin hari ini. Aku mempercepat langkahku, melangkah lebih cepat dan lebih panjang. Dan menghela nafas lega ketika tiba di rumah dan rintik hujan mulai turun satu-satu. Just in time, said the girl. Lalu aku menyeduh teh, duduk di sofa di samping jendela, menatap ke luar, menikmati hujan. 

gone?

apparently I did finish an entry and posted over here. just to end up finding out it wasn't published. where it all gone?


Welcome back, said school!

Masya Allah. Akhirnya masa jalan Dan liburan Habis sudah. Saatnya bergadang Lagi, bergelut dengan tugas, tergilas roda-roda kehidupan graduate school. 

Mudahkan Ya Allah. Semoga bisa lebih baik Lagi. Aaamiin.

"Hey you, welcome back" said school.
And I was like, ".... Umm oook..." XD


Senja yang kutemui

Seperti biasa penyuka senja sepertiku akan girang tiap kali senja tiba, di manapun, kapanpun, entah itu senja yang kuyup karena hujan ataupun yang bersinar terang tanpa mendung yang bergelayut.
Kali ini aku mengumpulkan momen kala senja sepanjang perjalananku menyusuri garis pantai barat Amerika. 

... Dan aku terus berburu senja, sebanyak yang aku bisa. 










(California, Penghujung 2014, Permulaan 2015)



Today's wrap-up

Alhamdulillah, setelah berhari-hari kepikiran terus dengan SSN (social security number), akhirnya Jumat tadi selesai urusan. Yet, there's still thing I hate about my so careless self. I thought I already filed every documents in the binder. Yet, arriving there, with very short queuing time, and sat across the counter only to be told that I have everything but my original DS2019. Graaaa! *fire everything*

Going back, sitting on the back seat and keep thinking how could I mistaken bringing the copy of the document not the original one. I mean okay I am careless sometimes (too many times, honestly) but, in such situation? please. Pull yourself together, girl! *self burying*

We got back to the office two hours later because a friend who gave me a ride need to go to Jumah prayer. Fortunately the whole process was really fast, not complicated at all, beyond my expectation! Oho!  It helps me a lot and felt so much relieved, and more over the lady behind the country was also very kind during the process. She's not talking much but her kindness just propagated everytime she asked me questions and then typed them. Overall, I enjoyed it very much and not even having time to feel bored, xD.

My SSN card will be mailed to my address within two weeks, yay, alhamdulillah. I waited for my friend picking me by browsing Instagram of Friday fact which just led me from one laughter to other ones. =))
Then in sudden I just feel like listening to The Ballad of Wild Bill by George canyon. A cowboy strikes with his guitar and very great voice! Awesome performance in a movie I just watched recently. Cheesy but not that bad, fun enough to entertain your brain when final is right before your eyes. Go watch it if you can chew some not so much drama romance story. :)

I continued my Friday out to my department for the last meeting of PGSA (Physics Graduate Student Association) of the Fall semester and also the announcement for the winner of journal club. Guess what, as what I expected, the mutuwah face just won the second place! Yay! Gonna get an ice cream treat! *senyum hantu sikit*  hahah

Going home and thank god we didn't miss the bus since its already dark and cold and about to rain. What a blessed Friday. Terima kasih ya Allah at as segala kemudahan dan limpahan nikmat yang Engkau berikan, semoga aku menjadi bagian Dari orang yang selalu memperbaiki kualitas kesyukurannya. Amin ya Rabb.

Have a great and blessed Friday,  everyone!

Memory brings them back

I found this chocolate mints one day when I went to CVS last time. Surprisingly that I saw that and just bought 2 pcs of them with no longer thought. 

This used to be my favorite actually since the first time I got them. Andes, that's how it's called, was a present from Kagawa sensei when he came to my home university to held a Physics Workshop few years ago. Since then, every time he came he always gave me that chocolate. And I never happened to get the same chocolate by myself until that day at CVS.

The first bite just successfully brought me to the memories years back. Setting up the experiments, working with lasers, analyzing data, enjoying the talks, many things that lied there inside. The tears just warmed my deepest.

This is interesting how powerful thing worked to dragged you back, even it's only a chocolate. I meant, yeah, it's not about that particular stuff, it is very often that memories with the stuff that make you feel those nostalgic emotions, isn't it? :)


A cup of frozen yogurt

That was a time when a cup of a frozen yogurt from Local Culture matters a lot for me. Even I realized there were so many stranger eyes surround us with uncertain sight. :)

Many unpredictable things sometimes turn into a very significant comfortness. It's effortlessly cool when a person treat you with respect and warm welcome. Gladly I found that here, my home away from home. :')

You made my day. Just so you know.

Well... We'll see

Kadang kita berfikir berkelok dan panjangnya jalan yang ditempuh seseorang untuk sampai di depan pintu rumah hati kita tidak pernah sama dengan jarak yang kita lalui selama ini hingga kita memutuskan untuk menerima dan membukakan pintu pada sebuah ketukan itu. Padahal siapa tahu jumlah perjalanannya sama atau lelahnya juga sebanding. Dedicated to you who's thousands miles a part, terima kasih telah mencoba. 

Btw, for fun, I just found them quite good saying things I want to say for this kind of time. XD